things i've learned so far.

1. a help is still a help, no matter big or small. you can't expect a first timer to do things perfectly as you would do - but still, the gestures to help should be appreciated. 

2. don't stop talking to each other, even for a while. even when you are mad. it makes it awkward to start later.

3. brush off the ego. sometimes it's all about the misunderstanding, never you.

4. when someone said sorry, you should have just accept it. it means a lot to one who doesn't apologize easily.

5. learn to use low keynote when speaking. it helps a lot when you are angry bahahaha.

6. people are different. you can never expect people to react the same way like you.

selesai sudah satu perkara.

alhamdulillah sekarang sudah jadi isteri orang. perasaan? macam tak percaya.asyik tersasul panggil mak and pak mertua makcik and pakcik bahahahha.

i'm now writing from my in law's house. semalam rasa pelik hari ni rasa okay sikit. semalam punyalah mengantuk tapi sebab segan tahan jugaklah mata bahahah i is pemalu hik3. i keep on telling my husband (weewitttt ada husband dah hohoo) to not say words yang boleh menimbulkan syak wasangka hahahahaha macam bodo jugak ni.

majlis akad happened so fast. aku tak sempat nak rasa apa sangat except menangis macam baby bila peluk mama. mama dah start crying dari awal so by the time selesai dia dah okay sikit. part paling sedih bila wali aku (my younger brother) came over to me and hug me saying sorry dia tak dapat nak akadkan sendiri lepas tu siap cakap jangan lupakan diorang. sedih habaq hanggggg sebab dia pun nangis bahahahaha. he kept on saying jangan lupakan diorang since aku dah bertunang lagi sobbbbssss. 

majlis di dewan pun alhamdulillah lancar. ada la few things terlepas pandang, but overall aku rasa happy la. we ols didnt do outdoor photoshoot sebab tetamu still datang sampai pukul 5 petang. we felt obligated untuk meraikan orang kan so tamau la beredar awal. and orang memang queued up nak ambil gambar dengan pengantin so we thought takpelah, nanti yang belah lelaki kita buat benda tu. in fact, masa lepas akad pun takde photoshoot beria sebab sibuk melayan tetamu. 

we really celebrated the guests hahahahha. rasa rugi ke? ntah. macam ralat juga but then bila fikir kita meraikan tetamu, redha jela. 

qila, thank you for coming. aku rasa tak best jugak tak dapat bergambar bersama. hasben aku siap tegur napa aku tak ajak ko bergambar. aku pun macam blurr2 ayam. sorrrrrry sangat huhuhuu. 

perasaan bila solat berimamkan suami adalah sangat indah. i texted mama about it. and she replied back terus aku rasa nak nangis hahahha cengeng betul.

i think marriage makes us closer with our families. semoga semuanya baik-baik belaka la ye. 

one more reception to go! chayok chayok!

p/s: make-up aku masa resepsi macam menakutkan. any idea apa aku nak cakap kat mak andam tak? hahahha.

the time has come, finally.

i'll be away from the cyber world for days - my mom's modem was struck by lightning few weeks before my big event. greattttt. pffffttt. 

i can't believe i have two more days to live as a single lady. soooo freaking nervous. couldn't believe that the time is becoming closer; how fast time flies. there were moments i felt like forever, especially when i was lonely but now things are so different. everything passes by so quick - in just a blink.

i'm scared for few things, but i believe Allah wouldn't leave me alone. semoga semuanya baik-baik belaka. things are definitely becoming harder; with two families to handle, i wouldn't say it's an easy task.

at first i was unhappy with my baju resepsi, but after letting go (it was hard hahaha) and once i've accepted the fact that it's just a small matter to deal with, i'm much happier. sometimes you just have to let go to be happy.

small things bugger me a lot. that shouldn't be.

i'll be doing my manicure and pedicure the day before my nikah day. and spa as well. if not for my big boss who paid for it - maybe i'll never get the chance to treat myself before the big event. so many things to do huhuhu.

but here i am. blogging about it. i'm shaking now. this must be the caffeine. i notice i'll be trembling whenever i consume drinks with caffeine. oh whatever.

i should be resting a week after my resepsi, but the workaholic i am (have to be), i'll be coming to office for meetings. life is hard when you have no one to trust. haihhhhh.

i must not be depressed.

but i'm just freaking nervous.

huhuhu.