tiada apa yang mudah.

hidup ni susah.
nak senang lagi susah.
dah senang pun susah hahhaha susahnya nak hidup.

takde sapa maklumkan kat aku susahnya nak hidup sebagai orang dewasa.
bila dah melaluinya, adohai macam nak jadi kanak-kanak sampai bila-bila.
if my dad is still here, surely he would laugh looking at how miserable my life is.

no, not that i'm suffering with my newly married husband.
not gonna say it's all heaven, but still within control.
rumahtangga mana yang tak dilanda merajuk?
hahahha aku la tu.

kewangan sangat teruk ni boleh buat kau hilang akal.
poor husband.
my husband is a quiet man.
dia tak banyak nak cerita benda-benda yang dia susah hati ni.
he keeps all to himself.

me, on the other hand adalah sangat expressive.
semua benda nak cerita lepas tu menyesal hahaha.
laju mulut dari otak kadang-kadang huhu.

we are struggling now financially.
not saying i buka pekung di dada or whatsoever.
but just a reminiscence of what i had gone through masa mula-mula kerja, nak hidup stabil.
it took me a year just adjusting to the new life, and to be wiser in handling my financial.

i just hope this time, it's not gonna be that long.
with the experience i have, perhaps it would help me to pull us out.

i can do this!

i miss my husband.
nak balik hug hug hug sampai terlelap la.
the feeling is 'undescribeable'.

love you husband.
happy anniversary yang ke lapan tahun sepuluh bulan.