gimme a break.

i feel like going away for a while. sangat penat tubuh dan emosi. hihii teringin nak bercuti ke pulau tapi... tapi... pejadah pulak nak pergi sorang-sorang keh3. tadi petang aku ada entri lain nak tulis. tapi aku rasa, sudah-sudahlah tu. tak guna aku meratapi hal yang di luar kawalan aku. 

aku cuma nak cakap, aku faham jua akhirnya kenapa aku begitu mudah lembut hati. because i want to please everyone. i long for recognition, attention and appreciation. and that longing haunts me forever. aku berdoa agar aku tiada lagi perasaan begitu kerana each time things didn't happen the way i wish them to be - akulah insan yang paling sedih di muka bumi ini ececeh dasar drama queen.

aku faham bila kekasih bimbang anak-anak kami akan jadi mangsa. now i get it. i can't promise you anything, but i know i would do something about it. just gimme the time. and love me as much as you can. i just want to be loved. i miss papa terribly because when he was around, he splurged me with what i wanted. attention and recognition. and now he's gone.

there goes everything. it's weird how i can be very cheerful on the outside but only God knows the turmoil within. bila fikir-fikir aku neh dah takde bapak, anak yatim, macam sedih pun ada padahal dah tua bangka bahahaaaa move on la beb wehh. btw, thank you to my best friend sebab selalu ada when i'm on top and when i'm not on top ehem ehhhemmmm tah hapa aku merepek neh hahahaa.

tetiba aku nak buat perancangan bajet kahwin. tapi idok le malam neh. aku banyak benor keja minggu neh phewwwww.