Wednesday, November 23, 2011

butterflies.

i've had my bittersweet parts when i was completing my thesis back then. and now, i'm about to embark my second journey of putting myself higher in terms of education. i'm doing something my dad wanted me to do long ago. i'm doing what my mom wants most, to make her proud. but i'm scared.

tomorrow, is my second meeting with my gonna be supervisor, i hope. but i'm terrified with the fact i'm not so quick like i was before, i'm not that bright; and i am terrified with the thought that people would push me away because i'm a slow learner.

i know negative thinking won't help in this situation, plus i shouldn't be typing in here ('coz i'm supposed to do some readings) but i'm just so scared of tomorrow and the future. but i'm not scared of the possibilities of making more money once i'm done heh so materialistic i am but who can run away from money, tell me.

i'm scared because i feel like i'm not well prepared even though i've read few stuff but still i feel clueless and helpless. in short, i am terrified because i don't know what to expect. i asked but she said just bring whatever. 

arghhhhhh takutttttnyeeeeeeee. may Allah be with me. it is just for one hour, but it feels like forever. may tomorrow is a good day for me. amiiin.

8 comments:

  1. ke arah memperbaiki taraf hidup..tak perlu lagi skim duit buku. hahahaha.

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  2. haha tu laaaa... dah la asik mengidam benda mahal2 lately pastu sedih sorang2 kat rumah sebab sengkek kek kek kek batik huuuuu.

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  3. kalo x sengket x sorg ke kt umh? hihihih.

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  4. hehe sedih tu la yang sorang2 tak sedih tu dengan you wiu3...

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  5. an idealist: hahah amiinnn.. tapi aku baru nak buat sarjana la beb. dah jauh ketinggalan berbanding rakan-rakan wuuu.

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  6. sarjana pun okay!! aku masih tahap ijazah sarjana muda dan tiada plan nak sambung. ahaha. good luck k! fightinG!!

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  7. heheh dalam dunia akademik aku tak ada pilihan selain daripada menyambung ke tahap lebih tinggi huhuhuhu. ikutkan malas tapi mahu gaji banyak kerja senang je wahahaha.

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