yet aku tetap rasa being with them can make my life as a whole. hurmmm of course there are countless of times they drive me crazy but at this moment, how i wish they are here. bosan gila bila duduk rumah alone and you're not legally married therefore less time together. haih.
on the other hand, my best friend gave birth either this morning or last night. she texted me and reading it had made me feel like crying. my buddy, since we were in primary school is now a mother. even though i don't really favour the husband, but lets not make it as a centre of the subject teeheee. knowing that she had to go through an operation just to become a mother haih susah nak digambarkan perasaan aku sekarang. sedih, simpati *for only me know the reason why* and happy for the newborn. definitely the father is super excited hummmmppphhh.
and to make my life more miserable, my another best friend is getting married in two weeks time. and she still wants me to be the bridesmaid. woohhaaaa *cold feet tetiba as if i am the bride hahaha* i didn't give my full agreement *how can you say no to her sweet mellow voice???* but all i asked was to find another person and i would only be her bridesmaid when there's none. tiba-tiba rasa macam cerita 27 dresses pula hahah. mesti mama akan bising bila aku minta siapkan baju sebab asyik jadi pengapit entah bila giliran sendiri.
oh bila aku nak kahwin? entah. susah nak cakap. sekarang fikir nak kahwin sebab bosan duduk sorang-sorang. letih kena bayar semua benda sorang-sorang teeeeeetttt hahaha. kawan aku gelakkan bila aku kata aku nak kahwin sebab aku suka going dutch. katanya patutlah aku tak kahwin lagi sebab seru tak sampai lagi. nawaitu nak kahwin macam bangang. tapi hakikatnya, hanya Tuhan sahaja yang tahu apa rasa aku, dan apa yang aku niatkan. takkan semua benda kau nak cerita kat orang, kan?
all in all, aku ingin membuat kesimpulan di sini bahawa patutlah ada sesetengah kawan kerja aku menjadikan keluarga sebagai centre of life. sebab tanpa kekasih at this age, memang keluargalah segala-galanya sebab kawan-kawan semua dah kahwin akan kahwin dan akan jadi mak dan dah jadi mak so they don't have time for you especially on weekends.
haih may time fly fast. and pesanan untuk anak-anak aku *jika ada* - kalau nak pilih kerja, jangan cari kerja ada shift.
sekian, terima kasih.